Tag Archives: life

Living Life Through Others is Not Life

I sometimes observe people wasting their days binge watching videos of people walking through amusement parks and raving about how fun they are or other such adventures many get to go on, yet they never bother to go adventuring themselves … Continue reading

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YIKES

What have I gotten myself in to? I really don’t see myself at this job for very long. Only a few days in and it’s definitely soul crushing, lonely, and back ache inducing and not the type of back ache … Continue reading

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Things We Do Out Of Desperation

Not something I want but it had to be done and hopefully something better and more along my path comes soon. After a long drought of no responses to the many applications I’ve submitted, I’ve finally got a job. Months … Continue reading

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Time Doesn’t Always Mean Time

When you’re unemployed, people seem to think you have all the time in the world to do things. While this may be true for the lazy, for those of us who have always worked their whole adult life it cannot … Continue reading

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A Life Without Dreams is No Life

How is it possible for someone to have no dreams? I find the idea hard to fathom though it explains a lot in my life. My family and all those around me have always tried steering me away from my … Continue reading

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Here We Go Again, She Means Well Though

I love my sister but sometimes I don’t think she really thinks about things all the way. Then again maybe I analyze the hell out of things too much, except for maybe some comments I leave on Facebook when I’m … Continue reading

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And 2018 Continues to Suck Right on Through to the End

So much for the dental and vision insurance I was so excited about getting for next year. It seems that come January 1st, I am to join the ranks of the unemployed. Time to go into super survival mode which … Continue reading

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Don’t Want to Go Out Like That

Sometimes I can’t help but think about what may eventually happen to my body as I get older. I’m sure most do. As the body ages, things start happening that can sometimes be out of our control. While I am … Continue reading

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Who Wants to Live Forever?

I recently heard on the radio and saw some news articles online about scientists looking into prolonging life long past currently held records. Having people live to 150 or perhaps longer will no longer be stuff of science fiction. I … Continue reading

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Something I Wish People Would Realize

Saw this quote floating around and thought it fit well with my situation. Don’t give “do what you love” advice to those forced to live “do what you gotta do to survive” lives.

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Why Did They Snuff My Fire?

Many years ago, I created beauty and art and had the desire to share it with the world. I wanted to do so much and experience everything, go everywhere. Stuff my parents never got to do, LIVE. Things though always … Continue reading

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Easy for Some to Say

Hey there. Yeah I’ve been a bit more sporadic than usual as of late, happens on occasion. Anyways, once again I’ve been getting people online telling me that I can do anything if I put my mind to, that I … Continue reading

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Is There a Worse Feeling?

Is there any worse feeling than that of having aboslutely no purpose in life whatsoever? Having it taken away from you at an early age and never able to get it back? And how about the feeling of having nothing … Continue reading

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What Did I Do?

It is often said that people get what they deserve. How the hell did I deserve this life then and all of its shackles? As a child did I deserve the indifference, contantly being told no or that I was … Continue reading

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Who the Hell Are You to Judge Me?

This goes out to the anonymous person messaging me who thinks he/she has the right to sit in judgement over others. Without knowing anything about me, you accuse me of having a victim complex and that I should “suck it … Continue reading

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Life is Regret

Every single moment of my 39 years is nothing but regrets.

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Dear Universe

Dear Universe: Why did you never let me be who I was supposed to be? Why did you deny me life? Why was I put here if I could never be allowed to be me? What the fuck did I … Continue reading

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What Does One Do?

What does a person do when they have nothing in life to look forward to? When all the dreams fly too far out of reach and all that everything they have ever done, or strive to do, becomes effort wasted? … Continue reading

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Feeling So Dead and Empty

Ever wake up every morning with tears in your eyes knowing that everything you ever wanted to be and wanted to do in life, your passion, is so far away that it may as well all be dead and everything you’ve … Continue reading

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Fragments

A little poem I was toying with on Twitter while drowsy. Hope it translated well here. Fragments I want to fly away but I lost my wings and my soul is scattered like shards of glass upon the pavement. Torn … Continue reading

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Don’t Remind Me

Okay, unless you can get me a happy life and/or deliver me Benedict Cumberbatch, I really don’t want to think about or acknowledge my upcoming birthday. I really don’t need to be reminded about how old I am with nothing … Continue reading

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This Life

This life, it sickens me. Everything about it sickens me to no end. This life is a disease eating away at me. I was denied the growth that I so richly desired and all that I was ever passionate about … Continue reading

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Mystery

How and why did I get this way? This is not me, it never was, so how and why did I get trapped?

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Answer to Another Random Question

Sometimes I get the thought provoking questions. Do you believe in an afterlife? by Anonymous Part of me says no. Like a light, we burst on and burn for a bit then blink out of existence and that is it. … Continue reading

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Never Happening

All I ever wanted was to live a full life. That’s never going to happen. You hear of people doing so many awesome things and wonder why you were never allowed to do all those things. I know money is … Continue reading

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Means Nothing

I was told by an aunt and a sister that I have great talent with a camera and my other artistic ways. Problem is, talent is worthless if you have no outlet in which to display it. I was never … Continue reading

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Burning Questions

Why did you never let me fly? Why did you let me lose myself? Why did you let me get this way? Why would you not let me be me? Why must my existence be cursed?

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Regret Everything

Everything I ever did in my life has been a mistake. Not even sure what it is I’ve done to deserve to be this crappy existence and eternal unhappiness, but it’s the only explanation. Every move I made was wrong … Continue reading

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Do Over Please!

If I could go back in time and change something what would it be? I would change everything. Make my life a complete do-over, do none of the things I did in my past. Find that one point to change … Continue reading

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One of Life’s Little Observations

From around the age of 4 through around 25 we go through life wanting to make ourselves look a little older, more mature. After we hit 30 we want to look younger, many going through drastic measures to make it so.

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Long Gig

My life has got to be the longest and most unrewarding acting gig ever.

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Don’t Be Scared

Don’t be scared, I’ve always pondered what it would be like to just blink out of existence. Not that I really exist right now, but you know what I mean. Do we really blink out, or are we part of … Continue reading

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