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Posted on 20/04/2024 by DarkPhoenix

Some people may think I’m wrong in my feelings, but it is the way I feel. One should not live their whole lives solely for the purpose of servitude and not allowing oneself to have a life of one’s own. … Continue reading →

Posted in Health and wellness, life, Uncategorized | Tagged addendum, degradation, depression, family, grandparents, life, living, parents, previous post, purpose, purpose in life, sad, unhappy, wasted | Leave a comment

How Could You Love a Monster?

Posted on 20/04/2024 by DarkPhoenix

I’ve probably mentioned this before at some point over the years so it is no secret how I feel about my grandparents on my mother’s side. Sure there were many good times but sadly became tarnished over time by the … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized, life | Tagged blind, blind love, children, choices, conversation, dark, death, evil, family, father, grandpa, grandparents, how?, life, Love, ma, monster, mother, no life, papa, past, ponering, questions, rambling, random, sin, something to ponder, trauma, ugliness, wtf | Leave a comment

Insulted As Always

Posted on 14/03/2024 by DarkPhoenix

My supervisor greatly insulted me the other night and I am quite annoyed! Just goes to show how much people do not know about me. I’m sitting in the office during my break and he decides to strike up a … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged being led astray, denied, desires, direction, goals, insult, insulting, led, life, life goals, life path, listening, mental health, path, rant, want | Leave a comment

Methinks He Thinks Too Highly of Himself

Posted on 06/10/2023 by DarkPhoenix

People who think too highly of themselves can be oh so annoying at times. My supervisor at my crap pay the bills job loves to get up in front of us workers, and sometimes even one on one, and tell … Continue reading →

Posted in life, Uncategorized | Tagged assumption, audacity, boast, boastful, boss, car tester, Comcast, Continental Cablevision, depressing, eye roll, give me a break, good, happy, job, life, oh please, Omnicom, Omnicom Cablevision, rant, really, sad, supervisor, thinking too highly of oneself, vent, work, worthless | Leave a comment

Snappy Comeback

Posted on 01/07/2023 by DarkPhoenix

I should have known better in the first place but I did it anyways because I was in a mood. My Auntie T. whom I love dearly despite her being one of those types who love to shove religion down … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged agnostic, agnosticism, aunt, avoiding a confrontation, being a good person, belief, beliefs, Christianity, comeback, controversy, epic response, get your goat, holy roller, keep thy religion to thyself, life, Love, ramming it down your throat, religoin, snap back, snappy, thoughts | Leave a comment

This is Gonna Hurt

Posted on 01/05/2023 by DarkPhoenix

Well I knew it wasn’t going to be cheap, but didn’t expect it to be so expensive. Definitely going to have to do some more quote hunting. Took my car to a couple of body shops to see how much … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged accident, agony, auto, boob job, car, car parts, car repairs, headache, life, maintenance, mechanics, money, pain, pickle, Pontiac, poor me, quotes, repairs, Sunfire | Leave a comment

Ever Have One of Those Weeks?

Posted on 28/02/2023 by DarkPhoenix

Ever have one of those weeks? The kind where you just want to rewind or fast forward time because nothing is going right? We all have I’m sure but I just feel the need to purge it from my system … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged bad, bad day, bad luck, bad week, just lovely, life, not going my way, shit happens, week from hell | Leave a comment

Coping Mechanism Wisdom

Posted on 01/02/2023 by DarkPhoenix

The other night I received a text as part of a group text from a friend (“S.”) asking how everyone was doing. I decided to go ahead and answer and stated that I was working my life away with no … Continue reading →

Posted in Health and wellness, Uncategorized | Tagged celebrate, cope, coping, coping mechanisms, death, family, friends, grief, life, loss, loved ones, mourning, passing away, sadness, wisdom, words of wisdom | Leave a comment

Either Be the Solution or Keep Quiet

Posted on 01/02/2022 by DarkPhoenix

Love people with unsolicited, unhelpful advice. Earlier this week I went to my doctor for my three month checkup. Always stressful because my doctor tends to try to give me career advice and I know she means well but I … Continue reading →

Posted in Health and wellness, Uncategorized | Tagged advice, career, choices, directions, gripe, jobs, life, rant, they mean well, unsolicited, unsolicited advice | Leave a comment

What is Really the Point?

Posted on 04/11/2021 by DarkPhoenix

“At least you’re alive.” “You’ve got your health.” Am I? Do I? And even so, what is the point of it all. Sure, a select few are able to live their dreams but for the rest of us, it is … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged balance, depressed, feed the machine, lack of life, life, pointless, what's the point, work, worthless | Leave a comment

Am I a Yoyo?

Posted on 30/10/2021 by DarkPhoenix

Not sure if I should be annoyed or not. One of my former coworkers from my former place of employment contacted me on LinkedIn recently, originally to wish me happy birthday and then she gives me updates on what she’s … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged dilemma, gripe, life, live, vent, wasted life, work, work life balance, yoyo | Leave a comment

No, I Will Not Be Content

Posted on 20/09/2021 by DarkPhoenix

Those of us who have truly tried in life and can’t seem to catch a break should not have to just be content with mediocrity. We should not have to just be happy we have a job or life we … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged contentment, depression, happiness, life, soul, soul sucking, unhappy | Leave a comment

Don’t Give Them An Inch or They Will Take the Mile

Posted on 03/09/2021 by DarkPhoenix

Ahh they are at it again at work. I swear, even though I don’t have anything lined up I am so tempted to just walk away for the sake of whatever tiny fragment of sanity I have left. When I … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged depressed, don't give them satisfaction, gripe, hopeless, life, never having time, reclaim your life, unhappy, venting, work | Leave a comment

So Empty

Posted on 13/08/2021 by DarkPhoenix

What good is knowledge when you’re never allowed the chance to use it? Passion when nobody gives a crap? Everything you poured your heart and soul in to getting yanked further and further out of reach? What is the point … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged contemplate, darkness, heart, knowledge, life, passion, random, soul, thoughts | Leave a comment

Just Grates On One’s Nerves

Posted on 16/07/2021 by DarkPhoenix

Ever have that one person at work that has the most annoying, twittery laughs imaginable and thinks everything is just so funny even when you’re dead serious? Yeah, I work under one of those people. It’s not fun. The other … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged gripe, life, rant, vent | Leave a comment

You Will Never Understand

Posted on 08/07/2021 by DarkPhoenix

“Do what you love in your spare time,” they say. “You can still create and be you,” they say. It’s easy for them of course since their soul isn’t being sucked dry every single day. Last time I listen to … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged at a loss, creatives, depressed, depression, do what you love, health, job, life, mental health, mind, need to create, negative, positive, random, rant, soul, soul sucking, struggle, thoughts, venting, work, work life balance, yeah right | Leave a comment

So Easy For You to Say!

Posted on 03/07/2021 by DarkPhoenix

“You can do/be anything you set your mind to.” Am I the only one who hates that all too commonly used phrase? And then when you comment back that sometimes you can’t due to money and/or life situations or lack … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged career, depression, getting to where you are meant to be, goals, life, rant, some have it easy, some have it hard, tropes, vent | Leave a comment

Rose Colored Rear View Mirror Glasses

Posted on 10/06/2021 by DarkPhoenix

Some people live with the delusion that the past was oh so much better than the present. Granted, the present isn’t all that great either but there are always problems no matter the decade. Of course times of your youth … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged life, looking back, nostalgia, random thought, rear view, rose colored glasses | Leave a comment

Back With a Venting!

Posted on 03/04/2021 by DarkPhoenix

Well I was hoping that my return to my blog would be a pleasant post about something other than a big mega rant but I really have to get this out as I am at my breaking point. My movie … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged darkness, depression, gripe, life, rant, return, vent | Leave a comment

Crazy Time

Posted on 19/10/2020 by DarkPhoenix

I know I’ve been neglecting my blogs and vlogs a lot the past few months, sorry about that. My mindset has been really suffering lately. As I’ve mentioned before, this survival job I have is really draining me physically and … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged 2020, absence, blogs, life, life sucks, mental health, mindset, vlogs | Leave a comment

Living Life Through Others is Not Life

Posted on 09/05/2020 by DarkPhoenix

I sometimes observe people wasting their days binge watching videos of people walking through amusement parks and raving about how fun they are or other such adventures many get to go on, yet they never bother to go adventuring themselves … Continue reading →

Posted in Entertainment, Health and wellness, Travel, Uncategorized | Tagged adventure, life, stagnant, time wasters, wasting away, wasting life | Leave a comment

YIKES

Posted on 04/02/2020 by DarkPhoenix

What have I gotten myself in to? I really don’t see myself at this job for very long. Only a few days in and it’s definitely soul crushing, lonely, and back ache inducing and not the type of back ache … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged balance, bored of life, creative, dreams, existence, goals, hell, lack of life, life, no time, time, work | Leave a comment

Things We Do Out Of Desperation

Posted on 01/02/2020 by DarkPhoenix

Not something I want but it had to be done and hopefully something better and more along my path comes soon. After a long drought of no responses to the many applications I’ve submitted, I’ve finally got a job. Months … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged acting, actor, anxiety, cars, create, creative, dreams, energy, filmmaking, gotta pay the bills, job, job hunt, job seeker, killing me, lack of energy, life, living, long hours, lost dreams, money, need a better job, new job, scared shitless, spark, television, television production, video, work | Leave a comment

Time Doesn’t Always Mean Time

Posted on 20/08/2019 by DarkPhoenix

When you’re unemployed, people seem to think you have all the time in the world to do things. While this may be true for the lazy, for those of us who have always worked their whole adult life it cannot … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged anxiety, depression, employment, life, mindset, time, unemployment | Leave a comment

A Life Without Dreams is No Life

Posted on 19/03/2019 by DarkPhoenix

How is it possible for someone to have no dreams? I find the idea hard to fathom though it explains a lot in my life. My family and all those around me have always tried steering me away from my … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged a life without dreams, broken dreams, death, dreamer, dreams, goals, holding pattern, life, life goals, living, lost dreams | Leave a comment

Here We Go Again, She Means Well Though

Posted on 14/02/2019 by DarkPhoenix

I love my sister but sometimes I don’t think she really thinks about things all the way. Then again maybe I analyze the hell out of things too much, except for maybe some comments I leave on Facebook when I’m … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged broke, easier said than done, life, life sucks, means well, money, sucks, sucks to be me | Leave a comment

And 2018 Continues to Suck Right on Through to the End

Posted on 30/11/2018 by DarkPhoenix

So much for the dental and vision insurance I was so excited about getting for next year. It seems that come January 1st, I am to join the ranks of the unemployed. Time to go into super survival mode which … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged 2018 sucks, life, need a job, unemployed | Leave a comment

Don’t Want to Go Out Like That

Posted on 15/09/2018 by DarkPhoenix

Sometimes I can’t help but think about what may eventually happen to my body as I get older. I’m sure most do. As the body ages, things start happening that can sometimes be out of our control. While I am … Continue reading →

Posted in Health and wellness, Uncategorized | Tagged body, exercise, health, life, pain, worry | Leave a comment

Who Wants to Live Forever?

Posted on 01/09/2017 by DarkPhoenix

I recently heard on the radio and saw some news articles online about scientists looking into prolonging life long past currently held records. Having people live to 150 or perhaps longer will no longer be stuff of science fiction. I … Continue reading →

Posted in Health and wellness, News and politics, Uncategorized | Tagged breakthrough, life, longer life, longevity, pros and cons to longer life, rabbit hole, science | Leave a comment

Something I Wish People Would Realize

Posted on 03/04/2016 by DarkPhoenix

Saw this quote floating around and thought it fit well with my situation. Don’t give “do what you love” advice to those forced to live “do what you gotta do to survive” lives.

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged advice, life, wish people would get this into their heads | Leave a comment

Why Did They Snuff My Fire?

Posted on 29/08/2015 by DarkPhoenix

Many years ago, I created beauty and art and had the desire to share it with the world. I wanted to do so much and experience everything, go everywhere. Stuff my parents never got to do, LIVE. Things though always … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged ambitions, broken dreams, depressed, depression, dreams, life, misery, sad, sadness, the universe hates me, useless | Leave a comment

Easy for Some to Say

Posted on 06/04/2015 by DarkPhoenix

Hey there. Yeah I’ve been a bit more sporadic than usual as of late, happens on occasion. Anyways, once again I’ve been getting people online telling me that I can do anything if I put my mind to, that I … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged alone, depressed, desires, dreams, easier said than done, life, lost dreams, no backup, sad | 1 Comment

Is There a Worse Feeling?

Posted on 01/03/2015 by DarkPhoenix

Is there any worse feeling than that of having aboslutely no purpose in life whatsoever? Having it taken away from you at an early age and never able to get it back? And how about the feeling of having nothing … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged depressed, depression, feelings, life, purpose, useless | Leave a comment

What Did I Do?

Posted on 06/02/2015 by DarkPhoenix

It is often said that people get what they deserve. How the hell did I deserve this life then and all of its shackles? As a child did I deserve the indifference, contantly being told no or that I was … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged deoression, depressed, destroyed, falling again, life, lost dreams, no hope, sad | Leave a comment

Who the Hell Are You to Judge Me?

Posted on 21/11/2014 by DarkPhoenix

This goes out to the anonymous person messaging me who thinks he/she has the right to sit in judgement over others. Without knowing anything about me, you accuse me of having a victim complex and that I should “suck it … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged depressed, depression, derailed, failure, I'm not supposed to be this way, life, life in ruins, not a victim complex, rant, sadness, shut up, someone pissed me off, times of weakness, tired, useless, vent | Leave a comment

Life is Regret

Posted on 01/11/2014 by DarkPhoenix

Every single moment of my 39 years is nothing but regrets.

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged depressed, depressing, hopeless, life, regret, sadness | Leave a comment

Dear Universe

Posted on 19/10/2014 by DarkPhoenix

Dear Universe: Why did you never let me be who I was supposed to be? Why did you deny me life? Why was I put here if I could never be allowed to be me? What the fuck did I … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged angry, cruel joke, dear universe, depressed, feeling, I need to fade away, life, my mind is never silent, on my mind, sad, this is not me, why me?, worthless | Leave a comment

What Does One Do?

Posted on 05/10/2014 by DarkPhoenix

What does a person do when they have nothing in life to look forward to? When all the dreams fly too far out of reach and all that everything they have ever done, or strive to do, becomes effort wasted? … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged depressed, depression, existence, failed my twin flame, failure, feelings, I don't like it, life, life of regrets, loss, miserable, my mind is never silent, never recovered, no purpose, on my mind, out of reach, sad, sadness | Leave a comment

Feeling So Dead and Empty

Posted on 28/09/2014 by DarkPhoenix

Ever wake up every morning with tears in your eyes knowing that everything you ever wanted to be and wanted to do in life, your passion, is so far away that it may as well all be dead and everything you’ve … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged all out of control, dead inside, depression, dreams, empty, held back, I was going to be the success, I was the smart one, life, pain, sad, sadness, tears, useless, wasted dreams, wasted life | Leave a comment

Fragments

Posted on 27/09/2014 by DarkPhoenix

A little poem I was toying with on Twitter while drowsy. Hope it translated well here. Fragments I want to fly away but I lost my wings and my soul is scattered like shards of glass upon the pavement. Torn … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged dark, depressed, Fragments, life, pieces of me, poem, poetry, random thought, sad, shards of glass, shattered, soul | Leave a comment

Don’t Remind Me

Posted on 20/09/2014 by DarkPhoenix

Okay, unless you can get me a happy life and/or deliver me Benedict Cumberbatch, I really don’t want to think about or acknowledge my upcoming birthday. I really don’t need to be reminded about how old I am with nothing … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged Benedict Cumberbatch, birthday, depressed, depression, don't remind me, don't want to think about it, lack of life, life, rant, reminder, sad, sadness | Leave a comment

This Life

Posted on 31/08/2014 by DarkPhoenix

This life, it sickens me. Everything about it sickens me to no end. This life is a disease eating away at me. I was denied the growth that I so richly desired and all that I was ever passionate about … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged alone, depression, life, life sucks, lifeless, misery, sadness | 2 Comments

Mystery

Posted on 29/07/2014 by DarkPhoenix

How and why did I get this way? This is not me, it never was, so how and why did I get trapped?

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged brain blurting out words, brain fart, depressed, emotional, life, questions, sad | Leave a comment

Answer to Another Random Question

Posted on 28/07/2014 by DarkPhoenix

Sometimes I get the thought provoking questions. Do you believe in an afterlife? by Anonymous Part of me says no. Like a light, we burst on and burn for a bit then blink out of existence and that is it. … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged afterlife, belief, death, life, question, random, reincarnation, what comes next | Leave a comment

Never Happening

Posted on 04/07/2014 by DarkPhoenix

All I ever wanted was to live a full life. That’s never going to happen. You hear of people doing so many awesome things and wonder why you were never allowed to do all those things. I know money is … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged boring, depressed, depression, dull, lack of life, life, pointless, unhappy | Leave a comment

Means Nothing

Posted on 11/05/2014 by DarkPhoenix

I was told by an aunt and a sister that I have great talent with a camera and my other artistic ways. Problem is, talent is worthless if you have no outlet in which to display it. I was never … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged life, life in ruins, life sucks, nothing, talent, wasted, worthless | Leave a comment

Burning Questions

Posted on 04/05/2014 by DarkPhoenix

Why did you never let me fly? Why did you let me lose myself? Why did you let me get this way? Why would you not let me be me? Why must my existence be cursed?

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged life, questions, why | Leave a comment

Regret Everything

Posted on 27/04/2014 by DarkPhoenix

Everything I ever did in my life has been a mistake. Not even sure what it is I’ve done to deserve to be this crappy existence and eternal unhappiness, but it’s the only explanation. Every move I made was wrong … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged bored, eternal boredom, life, life in ruins, mistakes, one mistake after another, regrets, what have I done to deserve this | Leave a comment

Do Over Please!

Posted on 17/01/2014 by DarkPhoenix

If I could go back in time and change something what would it be? I would change everything. Make my life a complete do-over, do none of the things I did in my past. Find that one point to change … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged changing, depressed, life, sadness, time travel, tragic | Leave a comment

One of Life’s Little Observations

Posted on 18/11/2013 by DarkPhoenix

From around the age of 4 through around 25 we go through life wanting to make ourselves look a little older, more mature. After we hit 30 we want to look younger, many going through drastic measures to make it so.

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged age, aging, life, observation, youth | Leave a comment

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