Tag Archives: depressed

Some Friend

You would think that someone who claims to want to be a friend would try their hardest not to make me feel worse. But then again what else would I expect from people. Not even sure why I added him … Continue reading

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What’s the Point of it All?

Really, what is the point? I feel I am in a prison I cannot get out and I wonder, what is the point of anything or anyone? I don’t see it. Why bother living when there is no purpose. Years … Continue reading

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Nothing

I am nothing and sadly forever will be nothing. Stuck forever and my light stolen. Everything is pain.

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There is No Magic Switch

Love how people tell me to cheer up and be happy, as if I can turn it on with a magic switch. It’s not easy to fake being happy when you’re not. One can only wear a mask for so … Continue reading

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Just One of Those Days

Need to vent because right now, and most of the day pretty much, I feel like ripping and tearing everything up in my path and setting things ablaze, screaming and crying too (that last part did happen). For almost 2 … Continue reading

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Need Out of Here

The urge to get up and run intensifies every waking hour. I know it doesn’t solve problems, then again maybe it can. My brain races with a cacophony of thoughts and worries and all I’m doing is spinning my wheels … Continue reading

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Not a Choice

Again people, my sadness, just like me being poor, was never an intended lifestyle choice. Get that through your heads. I was once on my way in life but everything got taken away from me, every dream got stomped on, nobody … Continue reading

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Sometimes it Can’t Be Helped

I know a lot of times I sound down, especially more so lately. Sometimes the brain just fills up with so much stuff it becomes like bottlenecked traffic and is downright frustrating. Sometimes, as most of you know, holidays and … Continue reading

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Yeah, I Know

I have been quite inconsistent in my blogging over the past couple of months and I apologize for that. I’ve been wanting to, but things always have a way of getting in the way. Firstly, my ghastly existence is so … Continue reading

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Slipping Away

It all seem to be slipping away out of my reach and I cannot do a damn thing about it. My life and all that I ever wanted is getting further and further away. Some tell me to chase it … Continue reading

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Fading to Nothing

All of my dreams and any chance of happiness is slipping further and further away. Nothing has ever seemed right and nothing ever will be right. All hope is lost. Thank you ever so much. 😦

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How Does it Feel?

How does it feel to kill me? To bludgeon my heart and soul? To destroy any chance of me reaching the very life I was destined for? Tell me, how does it feel? Forcing me down when all I wanted was … Continue reading

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It’s Not As Easy As You Would Think

People are always telling me to be happy. Be happy about this and be happy about that. Happiness is not something you can just turn on with a flip of the switch and it annoys me that people tell me … Continue reading

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Never Again to Feel Alive

It sucks to have nobody around who can stimulate your intellect or physical sensations. It is a slow and painful death. I had prized my brain and wanted nothing more than to experience life and had looked forward to being around people who … Continue reading

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Another Example of My Invisibility

Before all of the restructuring and downsizing and consolidation of offices at my job, I was one of the go to people for work on productions and an overall known member of the team. Over the past few years though, … Continue reading

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Just Finish Me Off Already!

The whole past 25 years have been a total waste and let down. Wish none of it ever happened.My soul is already dead, just kill this body please.

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They Don’t Understand

People don’t understand why I do not want to acknowledge the existence of birthdays. For me, it’s a sadness trigger. It reminds me of how I am still a loser stuck in eternal hell and I have never amounted to … Continue reading

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Unless You Have A Solution, Don’t Be My Problem

I wish people would quit telling me to be happy when it’s not at all possible. They offer no help or solution, just tell me to smile and be happy. That doesn’t cut it. There is absolutely nothing in my … Continue reading

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Why Did They Snuff My Fire?

Many years ago, I created beauty and art and had the desire to share it with the world. I wanted to do so much and experience everything, go everywhere. Stuff my parents never got to do, LIVE. Things though always … Continue reading

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Don’t Just Give Me Words

I despise what I have become with every fiber of my being. I never wanted to, but that’s how it seems I’ve ended up. Early on I was a happy child. Nothing was going to squelch the burning desire I … Continue reading

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Sad Random Thought

Got thinking again, as I do sometimes, about my life. I never once led anyone to believe I was doing well, but my grandparents and my father all died thinking I was a success or some rising star. My grandparents … Continue reading

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Thinking Again, Such a Dangerous Thing

I have not accomplished anything in many many years, and I fear that I never will ever again. I hate feeling like this. I never wanted to feel like this, I don’t want to feel like this. I’ll never know … Continue reading

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If I Were Gone

If I left this world, I honestly don’t think anybody would notice or care. I’m nothing and always will be. I wanted to be something, somebody, but nobody ever bothered to help me try to find the way. I failed … Continue reading

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I’m Defective

I only wanted to be happy in life, but instead I got nothing but misery. People can talk positive all they want but that’s all it is, just talk. If they really meant it they would show me and help … Continue reading

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Don’t Like Not Feeling It

How can I be expected to care when nobody else does?

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Easy for Some to Say

Hey there. Yeah I’ve been a bit more sporadic than usual as of late, happens on occasion. Anyways, once again I’ve been getting people online telling me that I can do anything if I put my mind to, that I … Continue reading

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Isolated

I didn’t choose isolation, it chose me. I was forced into a cage with nobody to let me back out.

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Is There a Worse Feeling?

Is there any worse feeling than that of having aboslutely no purpose in life whatsoever? Having it taken away from you at an early age and never able to get it back? And how about the feeling of having nothing … Continue reading

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As if I Needed to Get More Depressed!

As if there wasn’t enough crap going on in my miserable life to make me depressed, I come across an article in the news to make things even worse. The article pretty much said that if you haven’t started making … Continue reading

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What Did I Do?

It is often said that people get what they deserve. How the hell did I deserve this life then and all of its shackles? As a child did I deserve the indifference, contantly being told no or that I was … Continue reading

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Lately

I know I’ve been quiet lately, just haven’t had anything much to say that hasn’t already been said by me a million times. I’ve been lost in hell for 25+ years and nothing will ever change. Still around in the … Continue reading

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Bottle It!

I know I like to try to vent usually, but sometimes I wonder if I should just go back to bottling things up. I used to bottle things up all the time, and became quite good at it. Seems I … Continue reading

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Who the Hell Are You to Judge Me?

This goes out to the anonymous person messaging me who thinks he/she has the right to sit in judgement over others. Without knowing anything about me, you accuse me of having a victim complex and that I should “suck it … Continue reading

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Can’t Be Helped

I know I can be a downer, and I never mean to bring others down or make them feel bad, I sometimes just need to vent. I wasn’t always so bad. Growing up I was a lot like Tigger from … Continue reading

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My Life Truly Means Nothing

I was the smart one. I was going to be something in life and nothing was going to stop me. Instead I ended up here in this hell. How pathetic and embarassing, and I wake up every day crying. I … Continue reading

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Life is Regret

Every single moment of my 39 years is nothing but regrets.

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Dear Universe

Dear Universe: Why did you never let me be who I was supposed to be? Why did you deny me life? Why was I put here if I could never be allowed to be me? What the fuck did I … Continue reading

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Conclusion

I will never find happiness, sad but true. It is too late for me now.

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Horrible Feeling

It’s a horrible feeling knowing that all you ever worked and trained for has been a total waste. Everything you ever did didn’t mean a damn thing. Every positive thing people told you were nothing but lies. Being denied every … Continue reading

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What Does One Do?

What does a person do when they have nothing in life to look forward to? When all the dreams fly too far out of reach and all that everything they have ever done, or strive to do, becomes effort wasted? … Continue reading

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Fragments

A little poem I was toying with on Twitter while drowsy. Hope it translated well here. Fragments I want to fly away but I lost my wings and my soul is scattered like shards of glass upon the pavement. Torn … Continue reading

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Don’t Remind Me

Okay, unless you can get me a happy life and/or deliver me Benedict Cumberbatch, I really don’t want to think about or acknowledge my upcoming birthday. I really don’t need to be reminded about how old I am with nothing … Continue reading

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Everyone

All they ever did was bring me down and keep me there.

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Idiot

I am the world’s biggest idiot, the world’s biggest loser. Everyone was right I am worthless. How it got this bad I’ll never know. Never saw it coming.

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Mystery

How and why did I get this way? This is not me, it never was, so how and why did I get trapped?

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Going Nowhere

Going nowhere in my going nowhere life, my youth was wasted and now I barely exist. Nobody knew, nobody cared, my happiness shoved aside for all things less than that which I wanted. Those I thought could show me only … Continue reading

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Why Did I Ever Listen?

Why did I fall for your promises knowing full well, just like everyone else in my life, you would never follow through? Promises mean nothing to people. They are only words used to pacify or to get others to do … Continue reading

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Mind is Still Screaming

Why did you stop me? Why did you hold me back? Why did you not help me, give me a push? I wanted to live but was never allowed.

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Random Rambling My Mind is Screaming

Why did you never let me be me? Why did you never point me in the right direction? Why did you let me let them get me down? Why did you let me fall into despair and leave me there … Continue reading

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Never Happening

All I ever wanted was to live a full life. That’s never going to happen. You hear of people doing so many awesome things and wonder why you were never allowed to do all those things. I know money is … Continue reading

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