Tag Archives: depression

Hard to Be a Creative Sometimes

Really hard and taxing on the brain to be a creative and not be able to create. Unfortunately my current pay the bills job has nothing to do with being creative and therefore mind numbing and it’s usually an 11 … Continue reading

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Some Friend

You would think that someone who claims to want to be a friend would try their hardest not to make me feel worse. But then again what else would I expect from people. Not even sure why I added him … Continue reading

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Time Doesn’t Always Mean Time

When you’re unemployed, people seem to think you have all the time in the world to do things. While this may be true for the lazy, for those of us who have always worked their whole adult life it cannot … Continue reading

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There is No Magic Switch

Love how people tell me to cheer up and be happy, as if I can turn it on with a magic switch. It’s not easy to fake being happy when you’re not. One can only wear a mask for so … Continue reading

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Do You Like What I’ve Become?

I should be working to live life to the fullest, to be happy. NOT working just to pay bills and merely exist! I never wanted this.

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Everyone has always kept me away from everything. And now all that I ever wanted in life is gone too far out of reach. Thank you so very much.

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Not a Choice

Again people, my sadness, just like me being poor, was never an intended lifestyle choice. Get that through your heads. I was once on my way in life but everything got taken away from me, every dream got stomped on, nobody … Continue reading

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Sometimes it Can’t Be Helped

I know a lot of times I sound down, especially more so lately. Sometimes the brain just fills up with so much stuff it becomes like bottlenecked traffic and is downright frustrating. Sometimes, as most of you know, holidays and … Continue reading

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Slipping Away

It all seem to be slipping away out of my reach and I cannot do a damn thing about it. My life and all that I ever wanted is getting further and further away. Some tell me to chase it … Continue reading

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How Does it Feel?

How does it feel to kill me? To bludgeon my heart and soul? To destroy any chance of me reaching the very life I was destined for? Tell me, how does it feel? Forcing me down when all I wanted was … Continue reading

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It’s Not As Easy As You Would Think

People are always telling me to be happy. Be happy about this and be happy about that. Happiness is not something you can just turn on with a flip of the switch and it annoys me that people tell me … Continue reading

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Ohhhh She Went There and I Nearly Snapped

I admit it, I have a lot of crap days more often than good. Contrary to popular belief it is not because of my outlook on things which would be more positive if I had something to be positive about. … Continue reading

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Just Finish Me Off Already!

The whole past 25 years have been a total waste and let down. Wish none of it ever happened.My soul is already dead, just kill this body please.

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Unless You Have A Solution, Don’t Be My Problem

I wish people would quit telling me to be happy when it’s not at all possible. They offer no help or solution, just tell me to smile and be happy. That doesn’t cut it. There is absolutely nothing in my … Continue reading

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Why Did They Snuff My Fire?

Many years ago, I created beauty and art and had the desire to share it with the world. I wanted to do so much and experience everything, go everywhere. Stuff my parents never got to do, LIVE. Things though always … Continue reading

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Gee Thanks!

All I ever wanted was a life of adventure and fulfillment, but all I got was lifelong boredom, misery, and failure.

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Doomed to Eternal Misery

My life is total misery, every single bit of it. I wish it to end soon. I know I’ve been saying that for many years. Just more proof that wishes never come true therefore are worthless like me. What is … Continue reading

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Don’t Just Give Me Words

I despise what I have become with every fiber of my being. I never wanted to, but that’s how it seems I’ve ended up. Early on I was a happy child. Nothing was going to squelch the burning desire I … Continue reading

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Is Tigger Totally Dead?

Eeyore has been holding down Tigger for so long, I think Tigger is dead. Would be great to get Eeyore off of Tigger to see.

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Words Cannot Break Locks and Chains

With every fiber of my being, I hate what I’ve become No longer just a shadow, no it’s something far, far worse I never wanted any of this but it happened anyway Some say I could have changed it yet … Continue reading

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Is There a Worse Feeling?

Is there any worse feeling than that of having aboslutely no purpose in life whatsoever? Having it taken away from you at an early age and never able to get it back? And how about the feeling of having nothing … Continue reading

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As if I Needed to Get More Depressed!

As if there wasn’t enough crap going on in my miserable life to make me depressed, I come across an article in the news to make things even worse. The article pretty much said that if you haven’t started making … Continue reading

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Who the Hell Are You to Judge Me?

This goes out to the anonymous person messaging me who thinks he/she has the right to sit in judgement over others. Without knowing anything about me, you accuse me of having a victim complex and that I should “suck it … Continue reading

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Can’t Be Helped

I know I can be a downer, and I never mean to bring others down or make them feel bad, I sometimes just need to vent. I wasn’t always so bad. Growing up I was a lot like Tigger from … Continue reading

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I’m Screwed

Everything in my life is screwed up, has been for 20 years, and I could never find a way to fix it and nobody could ever help me. Everytime I thought I was getting somewhere I get pushed back and … Continue reading

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You Did Nothing

I looked to you hoping that you could help me, but not once did you ever even try. I’m a failure and remain that way.

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Conclusion

I will never find happiness, sad but true. It is too late for me now.

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Horrible Feeling

It’s a horrible feeling knowing that all you ever worked and trained for has been a total waste. Everything you ever did didn’t mean a damn thing. Every positive thing people told you were nothing but lies. Being denied every … Continue reading

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What Does One Do?

What does a person do when they have nothing in life to look forward to? When all the dreams fly too far out of reach and all that everything they have ever done, or strive to do, becomes effort wasted? … Continue reading

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Feeling So Dead and Empty

Ever wake up every morning with tears in your eyes knowing that everything you ever wanted to be and wanted to do in life, your passion, is so far away that it may as well all be dead and everything you’ve … Continue reading

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Don’t Remind Me

Okay, unless you can get me a happy life and/or deliver me Benedict Cumberbatch, I really don’t want to think about or acknowledge my upcoming birthday. I really don’t need to be reminded about how old I am with nothing … Continue reading

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Oh Yeah, That’s Right

I see people doing the things that I should have been doing and being successful at it and it makes me cry. I wonder what the hell happened, where did I go wrong? Why could I not find like minds? … Continue reading

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This Life

This life, it sickens me. Everything about it sickens me to no end. This life is a disease eating away at me. I was denied the growth that I so richly desired and all that I was ever passionate about … Continue reading

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Why Did I Ever Listen?

Why did I fall for your promises knowing full well, just like everyone else in my life, you would never follow through? Promises mean nothing to people. They are only words used to pacify or to get others to do … Continue reading

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Mind is Still Screaming

Why did you stop me? Why did you hold me back? Why did you not help me, give me a push? I wanted to live but was never allowed.

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Random Rambling My Mind is Screaming

Why did you never let me be me? Why did you never point me in the right direction? Why did you let me let them get me down? Why did you let me fall into despair and leave me there … Continue reading

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Never Happening

All I ever wanted was to live a full life. That’s never going to happen. You hear of people doing so many awesome things and wonder why you were never allowed to do all those things. I know money is … Continue reading

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Screwed Up

I never meant to be so screwed up, I never meant to have a mind full of fuck. I only wanted happy in my life why was that so much to ask? All my life, I’ve been put down, I … Continue reading

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Every One Was Wrong

All the people I come into contact with in my life who I thought would be able to help me get to where I wanted and needed to be let me down. Everyone was the wrong person, I never met … Continue reading

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Collectors

Why exactly do some people collect things that others consider to be frivolous and a waste of time and space? Some would say a collector is collecting for investment purposes, the promise of monetary gain. Others believe it is a … Continue reading

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